Surreal

Hello there, still here and still preggo. However, I'm over the little emotional funk that I was in during the beginning of this week, thank goodness! I've come to terms with the fact that he's late and will come when he's ready, up until Tuesday at least, when he's coming whether he likes it or not :)

The longer we wait to meet this baby, the more surreal it feels that we will be bringing a little boy home with us so soon. I just can't wrap my head around the idea of what it will be like to see him for the first time and to have someone who is blood-related to both Jared and me, who we will both love unconditionally and vice versa. It is such a crazy thought, and even though I feel him moving everyday I still feel like I am going to wake up and this will all have been a dream. I still feel like a kid myself. This whole process really is a miracle every time!

A lot of people have asked me, "How are you feeling? Nervous? Excited? Ready?" And the answer is...all those things. Surprisingly, I'm not nervous about delivery one bit. This is shocking to me, because before I was pregnant I would look at pregnant women and automatically feel sorry for them because I knew they were facing major imminent pain (and let's face it...they couldn't even have a glass of wine to take their mind off of it). What I'm more nervous about is taking care of him after Jared goes back to work and our family has gone home. I don't have much (if any) experience with babies, so it will be an interesting challenge. But, I am SO excited to have a cute little fuzzy-headed guy to smell, snuggle with and love. And obviously I'm physically more than ready, which is why the boredom is driving me crazy because there is literally nothing left I can do to prepare.

I will try to keep this blog updated with progress as we go into the hospital, and even progress while we're there since I can update from my phone (although I can't make any promises :). I know there are a lot of family & friends out there who read this and have been there supporting us along the way, so I want to be able to share our joy with you guys in real time! We feel so lucky to have such a great support group who not only cares but is genuinely so excited to welcome a new face into the world.